Muhammad Arif Hunaifi

     This is my last day i write a daily journal, I hope that with this I can further develop my language skills. There are still a lot of flaws in me, but at least I'll keep trying,so if I start liking something it will be easier to learn that something and understand it. I believe, sooner or later good things will come to me by continuing to try. To be honest, I'm a moody person, sometimes when I'm in a good mood I like flying as high as possible, but sometimes when I'm in a bad mood I feel like falling into a cliff. That's a little of my complaints, stories, experiences, activities that I write in this note. Actually, I still have a lot to learn and develop, I apologize to those who read this journal if my writing is a bit messy and the direction is not clear. I want to thank my English lecturer Mr. Dimas Avian Maulana for motivating me so that I have the intention of learning English again, he was always patient and explained clearly and neatly so it was easier ...

     I regret my deed about what I did yesterday, I feel guilty because there are many tasks I haven't done and I prefer to ignore them (sorry for task, I’ve not worked). Fortunately, today I am more productive by worked for college assignments that I haven't done. I always enjoy my life to the flow of life, there are times when I need to live quietly and there are times when I need to try hard. Even though I often complain, I still do my college assignments, although sometimes it's close to the deadline. For some reason, when I was working on an assignment near the deadline, my brain suddenly became more smarter and I understood and worked more smoothly. It's a little strange, but it's true.

     Today, my college schedule is quite relaxed, so there is a lot of free time that I can use. Because lately I have become interested in English, I followed the tips from my lecturer to start learning in a fun way, one of which is by watching movies. Yups, I chose to watch a Hollywood movie with English subtitles, there are also Indonesian films in the genre of school teenage love stories but I saw them with English subtitles, I began to understand a little of the words that are usually used in everyday conversations. There are also Filipino, Turkish, and Chinese movies. Today, after the class schedule is over I purify my brain and enjoy my free time by watching various films with a little learning about English.  

     Today is the day when there is an English lecture, of course there is a sense of happiness and sadness in my heart. The pleasure is that I’ve started like to the lesson, but the sadness is that I am still far behind from my friends. There are many things I have to learn in developing my English language skills. Today's course teaches reading sessions of a reading text, listening to someone and answering questions, as well as some grammar. For the grammar part, I don't think it's too difficult to understand, but in the reading section I really find it difficult to understand because of limited of my vocabulary and also in the listening section it's still too strange for me to hear the words and hear their aaccent. But overall I enjoyed learning because I began to understand a lot and the learning methods teaching my lecturer is an interesting, detailed, not boring, and organized.  

     Today there is nothing special for me, I live my days as usual, sleeping, eating, studying, playing social media, and repeat all again. It's a bit monotonous but it can't be helped, lately my mood isn't very stable either. Sometimes I am excited about studying, sometimes I am not excited about it and prefer to play on my beloved smartphone. During this pandemic I was not productive enough to do something good and useful, I also rarely helped with household activities if I wasn't induced to do it. My personality is also introvert, I’am not people person. Every day I just keep quiet at home, even if I leave the house there must be something like going to a shop or when there is an important event.

     Sometimes we experience bad times and sometimes we experience good times. After a good Sunday, came a bad Monday. On Monday, my class schedule is quite a fullday and one of the courses is always a lot of work. But I’am still working although with a little complaining, I try to the best of my ability to complete all my assignments while sometimes I have to stay up late at night. It all really has to be done because I believe youth is a golden age for us, it's better to fight in youth than to have to fight hard in old age.  

       I will be a little story about my daily activities. Today is a Sunday, so I’am stopping my study activities so I not be too dizzy thinking of assignments. I wake up every day around at 5 am in the morning, I start my activity with Fajr prayer and continue by opening smartphone (social media) to relax. Around 6.30 am  I started sweeping the house, having breakfast, and continued playing social media again. Around 10 am I had an extracurricular reunion with my high school alumnus, of course by keep running the health protocols. There we nostalgic about the stories of our high school days as well as share experiences, ideas and information. On this day, I really enjoy it and I’am so happy.

       But, since I’ve been in college, I realized that English is important to learn. Many reference journals and supporting books for courses are in English language. Yeah, finally I’ve started to like to learning it, the first step I started watching films in English even though there were subtitles in Indonesian, at least I wasn't too familiar with the sentences (according to tips from my lecturer). After that I started replaced my language cellphone settings with English. This English courses becomes a pretty good first step for me to start developing English language skill.

     When I was in elementary school, I little bit liked English lessons, because I thought it was quite easy for me. Still, in the junior high school I started having a little difficulty understanding English so I became less interested in English course. Even less, during the National Examination I got low value  English scores, because I found it difficult to understand the questions on the exam. When high school, I was not that interested in English, but somehow I liked English songs than Indonesian songs.It continued until the end of high school, when I entered the nonscholastic course for the English National Examination I was always not enjoy about it, it was difficult for me to understand the exam questions especially English listening questions. When the announcement about the National Examination was canceled, I was so happy because I was afraid of getting bad scores on the English National Examination. Goodbye National Examination (especially English).

    On this day, I started writing a daily journal in English language, is so quite challenging for me. A little stories of the past, I wrote daily journal for assignment on Indonesian language courses, afterthat I never wrote a diary like this. Especially in English which is I think is so quite difficult to understand. With a little stories of the past and daily journal activities, I want to make a journal of my own activities to practice my language skills, especially in English.